| I like burritoes made in the oven. I did that for the first time today and they were soooo good. Not soft and mushy like how they are in the microwave. And a bit crispy too which was nice.
A few nights ago while I was walking I just remembered that maybe people will think I'm a hitchhiker or need a ride and less than two minutes later a truck stopped, I waved them on and just kept walking and they eeeeeventually went on their way. Too creepy.
I want to go to church. I wanted to last week but couldn't wake up in time and I kind of want to go during a weekday because there isn't anyone there probably. I just think it would be nice because I'm sure there has to be something good said in an hour or so of talking about spiritual stuff. And I like the sense of community with churches. Also just out of boredom.
I still don't get the huge Dane Cook thing. Partly because I don't really know who he is. I just googled him and found out he's a comedian.
I have not worked for like six weeks. I can't believe I haven't found a freaking job yet. I need to find out how to turn my basement into a crystal meth lab or something.
It's time to go eat some burritoes. :) | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment   |
| | Current Music: | belle and sebastian: "nice day for a sulk" | | Time: | 08:11 pm |
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| Today has been nice, woke up late, tomorrow I'm waking up early. I'm selling my drum machine and micro-korg so I will be able to buy more groceries and stuff.
I really love going for a walk and will later tonight. It's really nice doing that when it's cold. And I hope I get a job in this town because it would be nice just to walk to it. Tomorrow I'm going to walk all over the town filling out applications at places.
And tonight I had to put air in my tires because my uncle said one was really low, he was annoying about it. But when i checked them, I couldn't tell if any were low and it's odd because he said it would probably be totally out of air tomorrow. He's on crack though or something, so who knows. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | magnetic fields: "sad little moon" | | Time: | 10:25 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/loved.gif) enthralled |
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| Today I went for a walk along the railroad tracks nearby. It took me forever to finally leave the house because I was a bit uncomfortable about it. I don't like having to walk across the parking lot of the bar next door and a little nervous about walking on the tracks since they are close to the highway and people can see me from there. The one's where I used to live had trees and stuff that blocked it from the highway. It was really nice though. Right next to the river and on the other side was a big hill with lots of trees. And the leaves have been slow this season with changing and falling and on the news they said this weekend they would start to though and they did. Lots of nice yellow's and red's. It also started to rain which was nice. It wasn't raining heavily, just right for walking in it and getting wet but not drenched.
Then I had burritoes for dinner. :)
I've been watching lots of teen nick shows and some disney one's like that new Sadie one which is good.
And when I woke up today I got a message from my older brother. He probably found out about me looking for another job and is going to use that to talk to me. Last Winter when I was looking for a job and we were on better terms he would call every single day and I would be stuck on the phone with him for like an hour. I'm not calling him and hope he doesn't call again. I asked my mother about it and she said she didn't know why he called so I doubt it was anything important. It's not fun not talking to him though because eventually he is going to at some point go on a killing spree and kill everyone in the family. Seriously, I just hope I move away from here before that happens. He hates everyone in the family and for no reason at all will just explode and come over and start fighting with people.
And my webcam and pics thing is working finally. Easier than before and I didn't even do anything to it.
( Pic of this thing I made when I was like five and of my new haircut, which I suppose isn't that new anymore )
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| | Current Music: | mazzy star: "fade into you" | | Time: | 07:44 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/silly.gif) crazy |
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| i was supposed to have tomorrow off from work but my boss said we had to come in tomorrow. so i will have to work six days in a row instead of four, or to put it another way, eleven out of twelve days, or another way sixteen out of eighteen days i will be working by about the middle of august. crikey! it will be neat to get eight hours in overtime pay though this week.
and i could not sleep last night at all. some really creepy redneck person knocked on my door last night around twelve asking about the motel crap and something about the way he talked or something creeped me out. like i was wondering if he was actually just knocking to see if anyone was home and was going to rob the place or something.
then i was scared to go to sleep and then the worst, remember really scary parts from movies that i saw when i was younger. i hate scary movies so much. i still get extremely scared and stuff just from remembering parts of movies from years ago. there are about three that i totally have to try and block out of my memory because they creep me out so much. and i had to sleep with the light on last night.
and right before i went to sleep i found out that peter jennings died. it's sad and i cried. he seemed like such a good person.
and i ordered a bunch of cd's in the last few days. i love looking forward to getting cd's in the mail. :) | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | kickball: "tides and swells" | | Time: | 11:16 pm | | Current Mood: | loved |
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| pleasantly nice sunday.
and i'm noticing how weird it is to live in this place. i never get to see the sunlight anymore because my curtains are generally closed and just not enough windows or something, so i feel like i'm hibernating or something. and it doesn't have the yucky hot feeling that my parents house has. i'm not turning the air conditioning thing on anymore. and i miss the sound of a fan whirring. especially when it's really hot and when you are going to sleep.
also, my tv habits have changed. partly because i work now and too much interneting but at my parents house, i started to only watch like room makeover shows and that makeover show with stacy and clinton, forget what it's called, lol. mostly because there wasn't much else on but they are kind of nice. i rarely see those shows anymore.
and about the london terrorist attacks from over two weeks ago. there is something really dumb about these two people that have been picked out by the news media to center a lot of attention on them. reminds me of how they pick out only the attractive-ish teenagers who are kidnapped and shoved that down our throats even though there are tons of people kidnapped or missing every single day. and someone should start an organization for ugly kids who are kidnapped. it's sad that they do not get much attention in the news spotlight because it could help save them perhaps. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | melvins: "lizzy" | | Time: | 07:24 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/happy.gif) cheerful |
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| and can anyone tell me how to do that heart symbol thing? i forget how to do it.
and i ran into a teacher from college last week at the grocery store. he retired the term before i graduated. it was awkward but kind of nice. and he was one of my social science teachers. they were my favorite teachers. but he asked what my name was, lol and then what was my major. he knew it when i was in his classes. lol. and i miss dr. barbeau.
and i consolidated my loans so guess who will be paying $124.00 for the next twenty years? lol. and i'm not exaggerating about how many years i'll be paying it off. but it is supposed to go down if i use my debit card and after a few years it drops a bit lower. so it won't be too bad and i'm going to send them more than the monthly amount so that i can get it payed off sooner.
and i'm so incredibly bored on my day off. i should rent a movie.
whooh! it's raining like crazy and incredibly windy right now. | | comments: 11 comments or Leave a comment |
| i forgot to mention this in my last post but guess who i saw yesterday? bill nye the science guy! he was on msnbc because they were talking about the magnetic poles switching their magneticism or something where the poles can switch. i miss his show so much. just seeing him made my day practically.
i was thinking earlier today about my scars and thought it would be funny to have a scar list.
1. my first scar is on my right leg, between my knee and my heel. it's not terribly noticeable. it looks like a small vagina that has healed over somehow. i got it the summer before fifth grade. playing guns and i was hiding in the playground, laying on the ground near a fence and i felt a sharp pain and had no clue what it was, probably broken glass and my leg was bleeding so much. i wobbled over to my grandmother's bar where my mother was working and was freaking out about it. It was pretty deep but they said it didn't need stitches, thank goodness.
2. my second scar is on my left thumb. i got a splinter in the top of it during the summer before sixth grade and i used to be so incredibly scared about splinters and this was the worst one. it was in so deep that my parents had to try and get it out. they used tweezers and basically had to dig it out. that's why there is still a scar. what's funny is that i was crying so much and they had to basically hold me down and one of my friend's was by the door of my house watching and laughing. lol
3. there is a scar on my back from a few years ago when i got this yucky cyst thing on it or something. it blew up into a big bubble then busted and went away mostly. i haven't looked at it in a while so i don't know if it's totally disappeared yet or if it will always have a mark there.
i only have two scars. lame scar list, i know.
edit: i remembered a third scar last night. | | comments: 14 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | yo la tengo: summer fun | | Time: | 12:06 am |
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| my brother asked me if i wanted to buy his car earlier today. he's getting a new one and got this one just two years ago for $7,000 and asking for $900 because that's how much it's worth now according to that blue book thing or whatever it is that you check to see how much cars are. my car's year is 1990 and i'm wondering how long it will last. my brother's car came out in 1997 so perhaps it will last a while and he takes care of it. i plan on moving after december somewhere where i won't need a car like boston or nyc or some other big city where you don't really need a car so i don't know if i should get it. but i might be commuting this semester and don't know if my car will make it through it or not. the car's too cheap for me to just pass up though. i don't know.
i saw punch-drunk love today. that movie is soooo good. but i was surprised when it ended because it seemed like it ended without even like some kind of finale almost. but in a way i like that. it was realistic and not overblown or exaggerated how they ended up together and just really sweet. i have to watch it again tonight. partly because i watched it earlier today and people were being noisy and i need to totally concentrate while watching a movie.
and something really neat happened yesterday. i noticed it raining and it was sunny. i walked onto my back porch and noticed that it was showering in my neighbors yard but not in mine. weird that it stopped at my yard.
and i can't make this entry friend's only for some reason. what the crap! and no mood thing either. double-crap! | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | the silly pillows: moon afternoon | | Time: | 12:25 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/angel.gif) good |
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| i'm always tired. i never really get like eight hours of sleep and take a nap during the daytime. i need to get to sleep earlier or something.
i went to school today to take care of some loan stuff and i went to the school's library. i got this reader's digest book on sewing and a book that is about artists associated with surrealism discussing art and artists. seems kind of interesting. i also got bamboozled and bend it like beckham. whoooh!
today nickelodeon showed the adventures of pete and pete today. so happy. and it was one i never even saw before. i thought i had seen them all. it was called king of the road. too good. their state license plates say "the sideburn state." stuff like that is what makes pete and pete so funny. lol
and they are showing you've got mail now. this movie is so good.
and my legs are still hurting from jogging last week. i should just stick to using bicycle and treadmill machines. it hurts so much. not fun. | | comments: 10 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | snow patrol | | Time: | 01:05 pm | | Current Mood: | like corey haim, circa 1988. |
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| hehe, i've decided i'm going to start selling any and every thing on ebay. books, collages, anything that is sellable. hopefully things sell for more than like a dollar. and i'll probably get a webcam thingie perhaps. people don't want to just read about your crotchless don johnson outfit, they have to see it.
and i bleached my hair last night. i put it on and didn't wash it out until like two hours later. and my hair is orange-ish yellow except for my scalp area which is yellow-ish white. i like it.
p.s. i might see suran song in stag saturday. i saw them once before and loved them live, the instrumentation is really, really good. just drums and a fuzzy distorted bass. i don't like the singing though, too melodramatic. some songs on the cd i have, it's tolerable but some songs are just so irritating. and they are kind of a pseudo-political/faux-so going against the grain kind of band which i don't really care for. but the bass is so freaking good. and they play interesting covers. like a couple gang of four songs on their last album. | | comments: 14 comments or Leave a comment |
| my whole family went to this creek place where they do boring stuff so i'm home alone. they'll be back later though.
my legs freaking hurt so much from jogging a couple nights ago. i haven't jogged in a few weeks and even when i did, it was jogging usually on a treadmill or doing the bike thing. i don't just regularly jog like they did in the old days, 1988. lol
i'm going to get thurston a wheel thingie so he can run inside. my brother said rats are supposed to get a lot of exercize so they don't die. i don't know if that's true but i'm getting him one just in case and because he would probably like it.
i'm also going to pick up some stuff to bleach my hair. and i want to look through this huge hair style magazine that my mother got to find the haircut i want so i can show the hair person. i haven't gotten my hair cut by anyone but me in like four years. i hate trying to explain what i want. especially because i'm a boy and whenever i say i want like a bob hairdo or something, they try to change it a bit to what they think would be the dude equivalent or something. so annoying.
ps. almond joy's are soooo good. ♥ | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | the silly pillows: puppies in the park | | Time: | 06:05 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/sleepy.gif) tired |
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| does anyone know how to make pics at photobucket.com bigger? mine are so small for some reason and i don't know how to fix them.
and tomorrow is movie day for me: some of the movies i'll be watching: casper, sleepy hollow, the pianist, bridget jones' diary, wish upon a star. and if i can find it, hocus pocus. i lent it to my sister like a year ago and it got lost.
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i'm so crap at socializing with people, i am overly friendly with people and it creeps them out so i'm going to stop that a bit. it's just weird talking to people and sucks making people uncomfortable when i talk to them. i'm so glad school is over with for a while. and i cannot instant message with people anymore either. partly because it freezes my computer, which is basically the main reason and because i'm a bit awkward with talking to people that way. i've just started using it like a month ago and it's just too weird to use or something. besides i end up talking about genital peircings, way too much. lol
p.s. thurston howle the fourth doesn't crap on me anymore. whoooh! | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| magnetic poetry is fun
the silent settle
the castle is a secret
dreams and empty hearts wait
floating clouds wander
white shining light
sweet red lips
golden unspoken truths | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | the six parts seven | | Time: | 04:13 am | | Current Mood: | sleepy |
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| i'm thinking about renting an apartment/art studio space for the summer. it would nice to spend three months just working on art and spending time away from things and just have a nice period of working things and stuff. and since i would be renting a place i could probably do it anywhere really. my mother said my brother lives in a town that has really cheap rent, like $250 a month. not that i would move there but i could definitely afford something like that if rent can possibly be that low.
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whooh, i got blue!!!
(oranges and reds and blue skies are our backdrop in the tree)
sitting in a tree
dangling are legs below
your hand on my knee
last day, because you're moving away
both of us trying not to cry
and we don't even know how to kiss
which is probably a good thing in a way
and thurston keeps going to the bathroom on me. today i made her a little walled playground area on the floor of my room. i made it out of canvas boards and books. there are little slides he can walk up and platform things to sit on and tunnel type things. it reminds me a little of the gas fort place in mad max two a bit. hehe | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| just got back from seeing three awesome bands playing. the first band sixparsseven were really, really good and i didn't know they were even going to play. they had this (person that has those mallet thingies and hits those key thingies) person in the band who reminded me of vincent gallo for some reason. i don't know why since he didn't look like he was bludgeoned with an ugly stick. lol. in a way more like nickolai from the strokes though.
the second band apollo heights were good also. i didn't like the singing but the instrumentation was so good and energetic. they had lots of nice sample/keyboard/loops stuff which was nice. and the bass player was so freaking cute. he had one of those floppy pie hats i think they are called and his demeanor or something was just so interesting or something. i could't stop looking at him. in a way he reminded me of slash because he kind of had dreadlockish hair. i got a pic of the band and him i think.
the third band tv on the radio were really good too. this one song they had a techno beat going and it was so good.
i got two cd's from the show. one from six parts seven and tv on the radio. i'm really glad i went. at first when i got there i was uncomfortable and awkward but got over that and really enjoyed myself. this paxil stuff is really working. and i took pics of two of the bands, some of the streets outside, and some of the buildings. whoooh
oh and the best part was that when i was getting ready to leave my mother hit our neighbors car with hers. haha. she must have been backing out of a driveway to turn around and hit it right in the middle. i was leaving right then and didn't even get to ask about it but just saw what happened and saw a cop car there. i just waved to her while i went by. she seemed a bit busy. haha | | comments: 14 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | dinosaur jr.: without a sound | | Time: | 05:30 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/mice/bouncy.gif) excited |
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| i finally got enough sleep. i woke up today at 10:30, watched spiderman a little and exercized for like an hour and a half. exercizing in the beginning of the day is so much better than how i wait until the end of the day. and there was hardly no one in the exercize gym place and i watched cartoons on the tv there while exercizing and it was so sunny and the hills outside the windows are getting a bit greener, it feels like such a nice summer-y saturday like when i was a kid.
i'm home now because i had to wash my clothes, pick up mail and pick up a prescription off campus and the cafeteria at school is not open because they have a picnic thing on the quad. i don't like how there are so many people outside and tonight there are to be two crappy careeristy faux alternative bands playing on campus. yucky-yuck-yuck.
i called my doctor about getting my prescription refilled and the person who answered was a moron about it. she said that when they had recommended that i see a counselor that it was less of a recommendation and more of an order and they will let me refill my prescription for another month but no more if i don't get a counselor. that is kind of dumb. if the lexapro i was on had worked i wouldn't need one yet regardless of whether the paxil works i have to see one. and it's going to be so expensive and i have no medical insurance. and if i don't get a counselor even though i will try, that means that i am basically paying another hundred dollars only to have the prescription cut off in four weeks. the doctors don't seem to care that much and didn't even ask if the paxil was working and they were so rude about how i hadn't gotten a counselor.
also last night i watched an mtv show i think it's called made or something like that and it was about this person who wanted to be in her school's pageant thing and it was odd how people regarded her as so geeky and stuff but she was so beautiful and then she got the standard beauty crap to enter the pageant but she didn't totally transform herself and mostly just improved in the self-confidence department which was nice and not because she changed her looks drastically or anything. and it was so awesome that she went out on a date and to a dance with the person she had such a huge crush on. but then he turned out to be a scumbag but it was so nice that the person she had such a huge crush on had liked her too. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| i had another dream last night but it really disturbed me and has made me feel a bit weird all day today. i won't go too into it but it was about a someone i used to be friends with growing up and that he was selling drugs and he put some acid on something of mine and i licked it without knowing and i got mad at him and he decided that he had to kill me since i found out that he was selling drugs. so he was trying to kill me because he didn't want anyone to know but i wouldn't have rat-ed on him but because he was trying to kill me then i would and tell them about how he's trying to kill me. and i kept telling him to just stop this stupidity and get our friends to help him not be such a psycho but he wouldn't so i was going to call his parents and the cops and tell them about how he sell drugs and is trying to kill me. but eventually we started shooting at each other and i killed him and felt so awful about it and cried in my dream the whole time throughout the day in my dream.
i feel so bad because he is kind of like this in a way. he used to be so innocent and now he is messed up. i've always felt bad about him being so innocent and growing to be how he is today. it's sad. he used to be so good. i have to leave but i will probably rant about this more tomorrow. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| i was dreading the simulation thing for my politics class but it turned out pretty good and easy. my role is to just take notes and record what goes on during the council meetings. and i don't have to talk too much so that is good.
i also got an A on my macroeconomics test and an A on my national govt. quiz. i also got a thing in the mail about how i am on the dean's list because i did so well last semester.
i stayed on campus this weekend and didn't do much but take naps. i am so bad at procrastinating that it's best if i stay in my dorm during the weekend because i'm so bored that i can't waste my time doing things that i would be doing if i were at my parent's house, so i actually get some work done.
i've been feeling really crappy for like three days and it doesn't seem to be going away any time soon. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| went to my phys. ed. class. kind of interesting. my teacher is basically the illegitimate child of r. lee ermey's characters from the movie full metal jacket and the coach that he plays on saving silverman. my teacher's just a smidge extreme and aggressive. i had him for a personal health class last semester and one of the first things he said was "don't piss me off so i don't end up ripping off anyone's head, and we'll be just fine." lol
i went to my other class and afterwards took a three hour nap. then i went to see my pols./gov. teacher and asked about the upcoming test and whether i could retake it since he says you can if you get a d or f. i'm worried i might get a c and not be able to take it so he said i could just miss it and take the retake test next wednesday. i kind of don't want to miss the class and retake it later because that's kind of crummy but there is too much material to read and i have two other tests that day. but i'll probably miss it and take the test later.
and my doctor called my parent's house yesterday and i have to call him back. don't know what it's about. perhaps he thinks i haven't gotten the blood work yet, since i took so long, or they found something in my blood that's not good, or he just wants to know if the medication is working for me, which it's not really i don't think. will need to up the dosage probably. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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